Time To Dance

You are, at the top of my lungs

Drawn to, the one's who never yawn...

Freaking 'Partridge Family' is on now >.< (N)

Well... I don't really know what to write :\ Haven't been on in a couple of says. I remember the days I would update EVERY day. *Sigh* the good old days...

Hehe well in good news, YES FIRST DAY OF AUTUMN!!! :D

Best. Season. EVER!!!

Not too hot, not too cold. Just right :D

Uh... I got a job interview at woolies today, kinda nervous about that :|

But I'm sure I'll do OK.

Gunna miss Red Rooster if I leave, which may sound really weird, but the people there are like another family. There's not too many people, and there's not too less people. It's juts right, and we all get along and all know eachother. I've known some of those people for EVER, and it's not gunna be the same without me there (Even though it's like I don;t work there anyways) But oh wells :)

Need to start my flesh life someday, don't I?! XD

OK, so I did end up typing about something :)

Ciao

xx

Attack

You promises, they look like lies

Your honesty like a back that hides a knife

I promise you (promise you), I promise you (promise you)

(Promise you) And I am finally free!

This is not the way I wanted things to end-up

I'm sorry I wasn't honest right up-front

I made a mistake (once again) and I am deeply sorry

I don't deserve your forgiveness

I'm sorry it ended-up like this

The guilt was tearing me up inside

I had to tell you, do the right thing, and I lost it by doing so

I just didn't want to hurt your feelings, I didn't know what I was thinking

I am deeply sorry, and whatever happens, I wish you a long, happy and prosperous life

What I had said, typed, done, I am deeply sorry; I didn't mean it

Maybe one day things may be different :)

But... It was definitely not you.

I just need to, yes, grow up. I thought I left that shit in high school.

I don't deserve anymore chances, but whatever you choose is your choice

You don't deserve any of this, you are a wonderful person, and a great friend

You deserve friends who are not like this

But, as I put it, it won't happen again

We are all human; we make mistakes

Sometimes we don't think, think about the consequences

But it's happened enough that I should know by now

Again, I am so sorry, I didn't think and... Whatever happens, happens

xx

P.S. Does anyone on here know how to delete posts?! :\

xx

I feel a little better now, but still...

Do You Want To Be Different?

It's a beautiful lie, it's a perfect denial

Such a beautiful lie to believe in

A beautiful, beautiful lie makes me...

Wow, I've been blogging alot lately. AND for you people who think you're blog's aren't that interesting; they ARE!!! WAY better than mine; at least your's are long and explain your dayand all, but ehh, mine are mine :) hehe I've been able to remember my dreams lately. Lastnight I went to America again, and hung-out with one of my Panic-friends, and NO PANIC WAS THERE AGAIN!!! What is WRONG with my mind/brain/imagination?! *cries* lol it's well rare that I have a dream about them *sigh* But yes, talking about them... or who WAS in Panic... Ryan Ross. One word?! UGH!!! Ok, so here's a pic of him back in the day...

Ok, well, I don't know how to add mor than one pic not all in the same par :\ lol and I don't k now how to turn-off the freaking underline!!! I didn't even want it!!! Oh well, but the point is; Old-School Ryan ross = Win, New-School Ryan Ross = Fail. Qa-piche?

:)

xx

Woo...

Can you guess who the f****ot is?! :)

YES!!! :D Dinner is nearly ready WHOO!!! Where having brocolli, cauliflower, eggs, and a fettucinne thing my mum bought. She's home to actually make something. AND YUM!!! Brocolli and cauliflower. Who's happy for me?! :P

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Dude...

Agreeable :)

Also, another win

Omg

xx

:D

*Dies*

Omg, just had to put this on here

Pure win :)

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The Mac

Thunder only happens when it's raining

Player's only love you when their playing...

Ugh. Ehh, my Ipod earphones keep getting in the way everytime i try to type XD lol so yeah, lastnight's Church was awesome! Keen for anything to do with that place. I'm fasting Facebook tomorrow as part of my weekly Monday fast; I know I can do it :) Well, what's on my mind? (It's great how you can just 'let loose' on here) Pretty much, alot. Is maybe starting to get that feeling again, but we'll see how it all goes

FFS

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Make.Believe

LOL!!! XD

Ryan Ross!!! Lol and WHO would have ever thought that Brent Wilson would become HOT!!! ... I didn't. Well, people do change in 5-6 years :\ Hehe

xx

Think About It...

Clouds are sulfur in the air

bombs are falling everywhere

it's a heartbreak warfare

I really like that song. I keep listening to it. Good 'ol John Mayer :) It would be a great song to dance too, especially a contemporary one. I hope they do on 'So You Think You Can Dance.'

Shall put it on my iPod when i disconnect the internet (iTunes runs faster not on the internet :\ go figure). Night all

xx

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Seriously guys, it's not subtle at all...

P.S. I REALLY don't like the 'Happy Meal' add they got for macca's >.>

xx

From Yesterday

On his face is a map of the world

Wow. It's raining, and I'm still hot. And the rain smells bad. But, it's good; the rain. It woudl explain why it's been so hot lately. I love the cool weather. Bring on Winter :D

much love

xx

The Mission

I open up my head inside

and find another person's mind

I'm gunna take this chance I've got...

Leader's meeting tonight :D has it already been a week? :S Wow, time goes fast when you're not having fun... But some parts of last week was fun. It was great last week; I actually prayed out loud to every topic that was on the screen, which is like, pretty good for me :) I was proud, and so where the people who i bragged about it too. So, my lift will be here soon, so I'l leave this short and sweet.

Cheerio

xx

F****ot

You're just as superficial as the next person...

Just thinking about some things. I don't know, but ehh. Just felt like writing on here again :)

It's kind of addicting, but it's all good.

Tonight went alright; we weren't busy, so that was great :D

Some people have it, and other people don't.

You've been making some threats, got my name and address.

I'm breaking habits, you don't wanna know.

Although I'm wearing my clothes, feeling cold and exposed yeah.

All I wanna say is, fuck you.

Now, don't take it personally; I just wanted to say it.

It will be my little secret :)

And, I kinda feel good for releasing that.

But you know how I am; I am a good person.

There's nothing wrong with you, don't worry about me.

Goodnight :D

xx

Death Of Beauty

The sea's wine red...

Ok, well, I don't really know what to write :\ Just felt like writing something :) since last time i did was... early this morning? Ehh. But, today = another uneventful day. But, Church is on Tonight! :D Always look forward to that place, and since now that things have been sorted out for cafe, that has taken some strain off me *holds breath I had been holding* Isn't this exactly where you'd like me? I'm exactly where you'd like me, you know... I thought my cat was dying today. Not shockingly; she just made a weird noise, and was crying gout to me from outside the house. She wasn'y even near the door :S I love that girl :) I'm afraid that I, well I may have faked it, and I wouldn't be caught dead in this place...

xx

I Heart Brendon Urie

That's all i have to say...

(Oh, Hello there, Jon :D)

xx

Edge Of The Earth

All the crazy shit I did tonight, those will be the best memories...

WOW, it's late... early.

(Oh, Happy Valentine's Day too :P)

I only just got home from work about... an hour ago?

Got called in (again) but who's complaining?

More money :D ahaha lol, but money's not the most serious thing and most important thing in life...

So, tonight has pretty much reminded me why I hate doing closes (Thank GOSH Biggie was on to give me a lift home... There's an extra hour's pay there :))

But all in all... Ok, i better stop typing now; I think I'm waking the whole house up >.>

kk night/morning :)

xx

We Must Reinvent Love...

He took the days for pageant,

became as mad as rabbits,

with bushels of bad habits...

Who could ask for anymore?

Who could have more?

Seriously, some things make me want to be sick- gah

But... In good time, you learn to get used to these things.

It's just... the little things.

But hey, it has nothing to do with me, so it's all good :D

Another boring day, at home.

REALLY can't wait for a new job :)

xx

Love Is In The Air...

You wanna be the in control, you wanna be the one who's alive...

So... Two friends of mine are now officially a couple (round of applause) :D lol but yes, this is good news. They both deserve each other (ibetterbeinvitedtotheweddingloljokes) hehe but, it isn't even Friday O.o. Oh wells, and with Valentine's Day just around the corner, what great timing. But it is now pretty much official that nearly everyone of my friends have boyfriends. Out of my closest friends from school and all... 1,2,3, have boyfriends. And me, 1 and another friend don't have one. But ehh, who's in a rush? i know my time will come. As i was talking to my dearest friend Rachel yesterday, God will provide one for us one day, when the right time comes and the right man for us. *sigh* Christian guys are so adorable and hot, and being a Christian just makes them even more attractive. GAH!!! It's just too cute!!! ^-^ hehe but yes, I've NEVER been in serious relationship. It is only because every time i like a guy, they don't like me, and vice versa. But... all in all, it's juts not right timing. He's probs just not the one for me. But, ehh I'm not too phased. I'm used to being single, and it's pretty good too :)

xx

Capricorn

So I run and hide, and tear my self up.

Start again, with a brand new name.

And eyes that see, into infinity..

Today was GREAT!!! LOVED it!!! Well... ANY excuse to get outta the house, really.

Woke up in Amber's room (HELLO!!!) from staying over her place the night before, for our Merl-A-Thon with our good buddy Rachel :D and so Amber had to work, so Rachel and I hung-out at North Lakes Shopping Center for about 4 hours. She forgot her resume's at Amber's (hence the reason we where at the shops in the first place) So Amber was to bring them on her way home from work. But, it was really cool. Like, we have pretty much a decent amount of interests in common, our main one being our love and passion for God (You need passion in a relationship) It was so good to have D n M's about God with someone who doesn't go to my Church, but in general, we get along really well. She's an awesome girl :D one who will always be there. She's one to be treasured, and I can tell that our friendship will span for a VERY long time :)

xx

,,l,,

So, I had a dream lastnight/this morning, and it consisted of three of my close mates, and one friend I used to be close with.

So, apparently in my dream, I was hanging out with one of my mates i have known forever, and we where at th local shops (>.<). But then my other two friends are walking outside with the one i used to be good friends with, and apparently we had all been hanging out all day, but my two good friends had bought new dresses. And I was asking them if i could look at them. They wouldn't stop. I kept asking them and they just wanted to keep on moving. Apparently we had seen each other 'too much' that day and they wanted to keep on walking. So, I had an ice-cream in my hand, and I had thrown it at the wall in anger and started yelling at them. AHAHA lol, the one who im not friends with said i was 'spastic' or something along the lines of that. But then they ran off, and started being all weird and bitchy at me. I treid to apologize about it, but they wouldn't listen. But the one of them came back and was all cool with me, but then my friend forever and I both got txt messages from her saying 'OMG Carrisa is a psycho whore, she is so slutty blah blah blah...' She said she only sent it because. Well, she went back off with the other two, and I was left feeling like WTF?!?! over it all But then later on in the dream, i came to the conclusion that I didn't care what happened, if they wanted to hate me they could, I still had friend forever, but still. I was fine with it to if friend forever was like that too, cuz I was still happy. Weird, I know. But to conclude the end part: Whatever happens in life, if people become like that. if something happens, like an argument, and you have apologized, forgiven, and gotten over it... well, then, just leave it at that. And if that other person still has a grudge against you and all, let them be. I'm sure in time they will let it slide. But if not, well, thats life. We just move on, concentrate on the things that matter. I don't get hang-ups on people who are going to be like thats. so yes, i forgive, forget, move on, and forget about high school drama that, yes, WAS in high school. and if that person doesn't want to know you anymore, oh well :) You can't change these sorts of things, as that person just might be a little stubborn. Obviously, that person is not worth your time and effort. But just pray over them, none the less. I don't let things get to me. These things are just little things in life. But yes, if these people are all like that, im just like 'oh well.' as long as your happy in life, surround yourselves with people and things that make you happy, and that you are you, then all should be ok. It might sound a little conceited and heart-less and all, but oh well. This is me, and thats how i handle things. Everyone is different :D

xx

I don't know

Just cuz I can... One of the best men around :)

I really do hope this week get's more interesting though.

Going shopping with my mum tomorrow, work for 3 hours on thursday morning,

friday Youth, then saturday my friend's combined 18th's, Sunday Church.

so it all does sound pretty good, yeah.

Let's just hope I don't die of boredom before then.

Am really looking forward to a new job that will come my way soon when it does :D

xx

...

So...

Today is quite boring, once again.

Since school has started up once more, it's just me at home with my rents.

Very exciting.

Currently trying to look for a new job... But seems like no one's hiring at the moment.

But, I won't give up.

I trust my faith in the Lord that he will rpesent me with an oppertunity fir for me :)

Now is just a time of testing.

Love all

xx